Part 3- Letting go of the vision and walking through a season of pain

As Asher persevered faithfully through that desert season of confusion and disappointment, the grey clouds began to move from his skies over into mine. I walked out of that "one year of faith" and straight into a desert. I heard some things through the grapevine concerning Asher that made me think I was wrong about his character and spirit. All the information added up to this final conclusion, "I must not have heard God." What a fool I was to trust appearance and people above God. So I let go of the whole thing. I thought maybe the vision of the arrow was real and I was going to get married to someone.. but everything I felt about Asher was certainly wrong. I'm sure I had hidden away in my heart a hope for the fairytale to be true, but I wouldn't allow it into my mind, at least not for very long. So I allowed my heart to open up to others. A few years of close calls, confusion, praying about marriage, considering and then letting my heart go at times made my heart a bit bruised. Then I experienced betrayal, abandonment, and rejection from a few people in a short turn around of time, and I felt like it was God who led me straight into the pain. That was the few months before coming to India. And I found myself asking God, "How did I get here?" and I never heard an answer. I was going through the same sense of confusion that Asher was experiencing when I first met him. I felt like I was in the dark and God just let me stay there to be confused and alone. I wondered, "God are you even involved?" and I never heard an answer. Well, maybe not "never", because soon the pieces would all come together and I would see the glory of Gods redemptive power and the way he weaves all of our struggles and comforts, failures and faith  together to reveal to us the glory of who He is and his mighty love for us.