Trust that He leads our steps

So February 2011. I can still remember walking onto that plane and praying, "God, am I suppose to do this?" I was still broken and confused and always doubting my ability to hear Him. Sometimes we just have to step onto the plane, even if we aren't sure about His guidance. Other times we have to sit and wait until we are sure. I believe that the most important thing is that we have an honest fervent prayer in our heart that says, "God I want what you want. Please keep me in your will." And He will do it. If we always, absolutely knew exactly what his will is we wouldn't have any need for faith and trust would we?

By the time I arrived to India all doubts were gone. This was my home and I knew it. I knew it again when I arrived to the campus where we live now. I fell in love with the lifestyle, the people, and especially the little boys I was helping with. I spent so much time with God, did a lot of crying and worshiping and he was healing me. I was humbling myself and learning to accept my failures with a joyful free heart. I could fully celebrated the truth that all things good in me came through Christ's power and his doings, not my own. So He was loving me, healing me, promising me, humbling me, and freeing me into that humility and joy. This is one of the greatest things about our failures, they draw us closer to truth and to Him… if we allow them to.

So God was bringing so much restoration to my inner life, the hidden life. But He was also very busy and excited about what was happening on the visible part of my life. He was bringing Asher and I together and he was going to use our relationship as one of the tools for my healing. This is something I often see Him doing with His sons and daughters as they enter into a marriage relationship.